WHO SET UP MY MOODS/EMOTIONS ON SHUFFLE

How do I jump from one intense emotion onto another completely different emotion?

I often find myself in awe of people who effortlessly maintain a balance between their emotions. Personally, I live at the extremes: when I am happy, I am euphoric. My excitement is so intense that it feels as though my heart might leap out of my chest. But when sadness strikes, it hits like a tidal wave, leaving me longing for an escape from this world.   

Emotions are a curious thing. One moment, I might be revelling in the sheer joy of life, thinking, “Wow, everything is perfect.” But in the next moment, a shadow of depression can descend, making everything seem bleak and hopeless. This stark contrast in my emotional landscape raises profound questions: What is it about feelings and emotions that can cause such drastic shifts? How can one achieve their goals, fulfill their dreams, and still be haunted by a deep sense of emptiness and disorientation?

I envy those who seem to have it all together. They navigate their emotions with a steady hand, never veering too far into the extremes. In contrast, when paranoia grips me, it takes over completely, flooding my mind with an overwhelming fear that things will unravel and that I am merely an imposter in the various spaces I occupy in life. This fear often paralyses me, making it incredibly challenging to take even a single step forward.

The paradox of achieving success yet feeling lost is a complex one. It underscores the notion that external accomplishments do not always translate to internal fulfillment. For me, the journey of self-awareness involves acknowledging these emotional extremes and understanding that they are part of who I am. It means striving to find a balance, not by suppressing my feelings, but by learning to navigate them with greater awareness and compassion.

I aspire to achieve an emotional equilibrium. To those who, like me, experience the highs and lows with such intensity, know that you are not alone. Writing down your thoughts and feelings can provide an outlet for your emotions and help you understand your triggers. Reflecting on your entries can offer insights into your emotional patterns and how to manage them better. Be kind to yourself. Acknowledge that it’s okay to experience a wide range of emotions and that you are not alone in this struggle. Jolt down even the smallest wins and celebrate them. Also, maintain a grateful attitude.

By Ambitious Val 📝

6 Comments

  1. muchirimohamed's avatar muchirimohamed says:

    Emotions take a toll on every person. One’s soul can never be fully satisfied all the time. Soul is designed to desire, even things you are not supposed to desire.. What I am trying to say is, we cannot control our emotions. All we can do is learn and understand what we feel. When you understand your feelings, you will be able to sit with them, feel them and in time, those feelings will fade away. The most vigorous emotions are usually the ones you have never felt before, for instance demise of a close person, either relative or a friend, losing your first job, etc. But after you’ve been “acquainted” to such emotions, the next time you’ll experience them, they will not drain you as much as the the first time. This is why it is important to accept what you are feeling, sit with them and feel everything, without looking for a quick fix or escapism.

    Happiness is moments and not lifestyle. You cannot be euphoric all the time. It comes and goes. Same applies to sadness. Sadness is moments, they come and go. Never let your current state deceive you into thinking it is permanent. Emotions will always be on a shuffle. You just need to learn to ride the waves. Sun doesn’t always shine and storms never last forever, and that is the beauty of life.

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    1. ambitiousval's avatar ambitiousval says:

      This is very deep and educative. I appreciate you taking your time and sharing such great knowledge with me and fellow readers. It has actually put me on a better place with regards to how I react to my emotions and feelings.

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  2. Derrick Garvey's avatar Derrick Garvey says:

    very informative..it is okay not to be okay and also great to celebrate the small wins in life

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    1. ambitiousval's avatar ambitiousval says:

      Thank you so much

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  3. Kate's avatar Kate says:

    the line,” I aspire to achieve am emotional equilibrium” was what I needed to hear.Thankyou for this girl♥️

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